We use our computers, tablets, and phones on a daily basis, and when something “does not compute” we “Reboot”. Well out bodies are no different and sometimes we need to “Reboot” in order to get back to the root of the issue and start over. Every now and then one should stop and take an inventory of what’s in and out of stock, mentally and physically so you know what you’re working with.
This is where I am at this point in time with regards to my personal space and time (August Blog). Work has been very overwhelming, which spilled over into my personal space. This is the worst running year I’ve had since I have been running (almost 5 years). Running became a chore and I was not feeling the desire as of late. Running used to make me feel great, de-stressed, free, and now I struggle to get out the door. I have fought the urge to just quit all together because I looked at what I had invested in terms of clothes, shoes, gadgets, etc. and most of all “PRIDE”.
I could not talk to a non-running friend for they would not understand and if I went to a fellow runner they may not as well so I decided to do some much needed soul/sole searching. I started my research on Ila, gathered the data, analyzed the details, and began to see the issues. The main thing was to break it down, taking it one step at a time, and that is when I determined I needed a REBOOT.
I had to admit that I had lost my running base + need core work + weight gain = Need Lifestyle Change. I have to take back control of the issues and not let them dictate to me. I do not know where I lost control but I do know that it is time to make changes. When I accepted these issues it made it somewhat tolerable in terms of knowing how to address them one at a time, and not tackle the whole enchilada like I normally do.
REBOOT sounds very befitting for I was in chaos, nothing was synching, connecting, and the information overload was more than my system could handle, hence sensory overload at its best. I turned everything off Facebook, Twitter, and a lot of social interactions in order to slowly put the pieces back together carefully. I have prioritized what needs to be done first but most of all I set short and long-term goals in all the areas that need to be restarted. I will change the things I can and just deal with the things that I have no control of BUT change the way I deal with them.
REBOOT takes everything back to the beginning, like the old DOS system when the pointer would just blink on the black screen until it had everything it needed to come to the surface and be used again. Implementing a schedule will help keep me focused but not to the point where I cannot breath or be flexible. As I stated earlier setting a goal so my training will have a purpose with something to strive for. Also, I have to remember I can only do what “I CAN DO” and do not worry what everybody else is doing. It is hard not to compare myself to others, which threw me in the slacker category and the cycle of “bad self talk” got out of control.
REBOOT I determined works if you allow it to. Let the system put the folders back into place, reorganize, shuffle around, and start anew. This is applicable in life as well for we are in control to a certain point, and when that maximum has been reached just go with the flow. The season has just changed from summer to fall so I thought this would be the time to change as well. I was always assessing what I could not do and not what I could do (glass half empty/full). So, I have a glass that is half full that can be filled as time goes on.
REBOOT will allow me to change my mind and implement new parameters. It will not be a cure all or a magic wand but if I use it as the fresh start that it can be, I do believe that my path will be better organized and doable. Everyone needs a shake out, shake up, and let the pieces fall where they may. Put the pieces in place very carefully so a firm foundation is built.